today will be a long day for me....

group in at 11am. training my guys. recruitments at 3pm. meeting a good friend at 5pm...... omg. i'm dying for a lonngggg restful sleep....

hello guys.

there's the saying goes, 'give credit when credit is due'.

so i want to thank the Lord for His divine intervention. really. seriously. if not for His help from above, i wouldn't be where my position is today. endless days and night of praying and seeking help from above.. YAY!!!!!! His need is really on time, on the spot. when you trust Him to deliver you, He will. but we need Him to be the one on the steering wheel and we take the backseat.

anyway, i'm almost eternally grateful to the Lord for my Aunt. gosh.

today onwards is the start of the IAC (inter-agency challenge). Lord, bind the team as one and let us be the underdogs and darkhorses of the race. when no one's watching, we'll fight back like there's no night no day. Cultivate in us the mental strength when we're discouraged. Pick us up when we fall down and had wounds all over.
remind us that the good soldier is the one who has the battle wounds engraved on the body.

so let us all begin the 6 months challenge, to ourselves, to the team, for the company.

the greatest enemy here is myself and hence sometimes my greatest fear is not pushing myself hard enough to experience the fullest potential the Lord has install for me..

Bring out the fighting spirit in you! because everyone has it.

I'm fighting for this like there's no night and no day for me.

'you don't leave your partners in the fire.'

change is here..

4th November 2008, then-senator Barack Obama was fighting heaven and hell to become the 44th elected president of the US. and all of us knew that he won it, he fought it and he IS the President of the United States. it was one of the most historical day in US history EVER happened.

on the same date this year 2009, the year of change. the season of changes. people changed. things changed. and yesterday which marks like a milestone in my life. i walked away from one of the 'prisons' in my life. no turning back. no looking back. only looking forward. or isn't that's what our Lord Jesus taught us? to look forward and keep looking back on the past because our past has no longer the power to bind us in 'bondage'.
when i walked away from the profession, my only 'supporters' is my dear friend, Wilson [and maybe Mr Chan], to date yet. as I've said again, this business I'm in, hardly anyone is on my side. other than my own mentors and leaders, I'm not sure who else.

anyway, this line gives me the movement and liberty to go for goals that i CAN achieve. for example, i can serve my ministry. i can go for mission trips, relief works etc, meet people etc.

i sabotaged myself. practically. because of my delayed tendered resignation, my last day is on 16th Nov instead of 11th Nov. WTH. really sabo-ed myself to the very core.

that's number one shake-head.

she hit it. miraculously. I'm the only one in the team record-breaker of two months. think I'm the slowest. mum still haven't officially give the thing. he is still hoping to crash my hopes like shit.

that's number two shake-head.

everyone thinks I'm doing RN work because of my blue pants.

that's number three shake-head.

the pressure is on for MM this month.

that's number one car-crash.

the pressure to meet the creme de la creme of the company by month-end.

that's number one head-banger.

the pressure to do my best in SHD despite doing the lowdown humble work.

that's number two car-crash.

parents refused to support and no support from nowhere anywhere everywhere.

that's number two head-banger.

the waking-up at 0440hrs for the next 4 mornings.

that's the number four shake-head

everyone has their scars.. and their broken hearts..

though it's hurts like hell. yeah. i'll buckle up and move forward.

what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

today is the second rounds of shots from the managerial people..

half of the battle is won in the mind.
the mind is constantly at battle with... my own damn self..